My World of Nightmares

             My World of Nightmares

   Chapter: 1


At a black, iron gate leading into a prestigious private high school there was a shorter than average boy, named Matthew, wearing a black hoodie underneath his white school uniform, the hood was up and on the back of the hood was two white horns decorating it, he had long shaggy hair and was wearing black and red stripped ear buds, his eyes was down looking at his book he was holding as he walked into the school. Even though he was listening to his JPod he could hear all the chattering and lockers banging around him. No friend called out to him, no one gave him a good morning, instead he just walked through the middle of the hallway as everyone ignored and avoided him and he didn't expect it to be any other way, such was his life, he didn't get close to anyone and they didn't try either, this was his peace.

“ Ha ha, that is funny.” until he over heard that.

She was Isabella, she was one of the most popular girls in school, pretty, funny, kind, intelligent, her beauty alone created a storm of rumors, one such rumor said she was a princess from a foreign country, and being so perfect naturally she had quite the many people surrounding her, talking happily away. Matthew couldn't help but stop and stare at her for a while, until her eyes met his and she flashed a near divine smile, he however did not get flustered or stumbled he just gave a slight smirk and nod as a hello and turned his head back to his book and walked on to his Homeroom .

“Ah, sorry I have to go.” Isabella said to her friends as she followed after Matthew.

She was not trying to stop Matthew she was just heading to the same class as he was, she in fact sat one row in front and one column to the right of him. As the class preceded, Matthew continued to read with his ear buds in, as the teacher lectured on, Matthew didn't pay any attention in class and he didn't need to.

“Hey, this isn't really fair is it.” a disgruntled student complained to the teacher.

“What isn't fair?” the teacher gave a sharp look at the complaining student.

“Why does he get to listen to music in class and we don't? ”
 
“Well because he is smarter then everyone else by a large margin,” the teacher adjusted his glasses,              
“ what is unfair is that he has to be in a class with you idiots.”

That was not a understatement, he was top in the entire school even beating out the grades above his, the only reason he is still in school is because he wanted to experience school life and that is basically just him going to and fro from class, but every now and then he would stop reading stare at Isabella for a few minutes and then continue reading, which didn't go unnoticed by her. Isabella her self was second in class next to Matthew, but seeing how far ahead he was their classmates just considered her as the top.

It was now after class and he was preparing to head home by putting away his books in his bag that was always at his side, he didn't put it away in his locker since there was some accounts of bullying like stealing and marking it, but none of it really mattered to him much. As he was walking out of class a hand tapped his shoulder, but in his usual aloof style he didn't even noticed as he listened to his music and read his book.

 “Hey,” he continued to walk, “Hey!” and continued.

 And than his right ear bud was pulled out of his ear and a voice inappropriately close rang

“Yo,” turning around he noticed Isabella's face close to his, being so close he stepped back a little,they were about the same height so if they were any closer it would look like they were kissing.
   
“Hey heading home?” she asked him with a smile.

“Yes?” he hesitantly answered back.

“ I see, can I walk home with you?” she asked with expectation in her eyes.

“Why?” he asked with narrow eyes.

“I have something to talk to you about.”

*sigh* “sure why not.” he shrugged

“Alright~” she presented a serene smile, “hmm?” she noticed that standing at her locker was her group of friends staring at her and glaring at him, while whispering among themselves.

“Well, wait at the gate for me will you, while I get my stuff out of my locker?”

“Alright.” he heads off to the gate with that, while putting his ear bud back in his ear.



As Isabella was heading over to her locker, her friends noticed her coming and straitened up on her approach. This group of friends consisted of three girls and two boys who all had a worried expression on their faces. When Isabella reached her locker the girl in the middle immediately started a conversation.

“Hey... wh-why were you talking to him?” she nervously asked her.

“Because I wanted to, why?”

“Well, uh you see...he”

“He's nuts!” one of the boys in the back spoke up.

“Hmm?” Isabella tilted her head with a questioning look.

“ He has to take like twenty different pills and stuff,”

“Yeah, yeah and I heard if he doesn't he'll go nuts and try to kill everyone!” one girl was excitingly talking while waving her hands about.

“Yeah so you should try to avoid him.”

“Do any of you have any proof of this?”

“Yeah, I saw him popping some pills in the bathroom,” one boy gave a very serious determined look, “and when he saw me he looked like he was staring into my soul and was going to kill me!”

“I see, but I'm still going.” she said with a nod.

Isabella grabbed her stuff in her locker and left her friends there looking dejected and worried. She quickly jogged to the gate where she saw Matthew there flipping threw his large book, with his hood up like usual. She ran up to him and put her head over his book, letting her hair dangle down onto the pages, she was trying to read it too, but that was hard to accomplish from her position. Matthew looked up and saw her long, beautiful, eyelashes beating as she blinked, this caught him in a trance for a few seconds.

“Yo” he said to get her attention.

“Ah, sorry” she said as she backed away a few feet, “you really waited for me, for a second there I thought you were going to leave without me. ” she brushed her hair behind her ear.

“Well, you asked me to wait so I did.”

“ I see.”

“...”

“...”

“Well... so we should go?”

“Ah, yes sorry.”

They went threw the school gate side by side which garnered a few stares by their confused and shocked classmates but neither of them paid any attention to them. Neither of them said anything as they walked together, by this point Matthew put away his book and took out his left ear piece but kept the right one in so he could hear her if she said anything.

“So did you want to talk to me?” Matthew decided to be the one to strike up a conversation.

“What do you mean?”

“You wouldn't have asked to walk with me if you didn't have any thing to say.”

“What, I cant walk with a fellow classmate without a reason?”

“No.” he strait forwardly said.

“Well aren't you honest,” She gave a slight chuckle, “you are right I do have something to ask.”

“So...”

“Why do you stare at me?”

“Hmm?” Matthew's eyebrows raised.

“Well, I noticed you don't look at any one but me, you usually keep your head down,” she put on a mischievous smile that one wouldn't think she could wear, “are you in love with me?”

“No”

“Am I just that beautiful?”

“Yes”

“ Than why.... wait what?” her face slowly started to turn red.

“Like you said your just that beautiful,” he looked directly into her eyes and put on a smile she was sure no one has ever saw, because if they did that would not be able to hate this boy, “ I just can't keep my eyes off you.”

*Ba-dump*

“Ah, wha...um”  *cough, cough* her face was now beat red, her eyes were darting around, she was used to being complimented by men on her beauty but none so honest and sincere, this compliment completely blind sided her.

“So I heard that your insane.” when she said this she froze up, she was just trying to change the subject but accidentally blurted this out after all it was weighing on her mind, a bead of sweat was rolling down her cheek.

“Maybe.” This statement also caught her by surprise.

“What do you mean?”

“Do you really want to know, it is after all kind of my life story?”

“... Yes”

 She said yes because she feared that if she answered no than they're budding friendship would end there, and she was not willing to take that chance.



This story takes place when I was in my last year of middle school, so when I was thirteen, I was a normal kid like any other, but when I was walking home from school one day, I was hit by a car nearly killing me, luckily I was saved but I was in a coma for three months. When I awoke the first thing I saw was... a nightmare the “doctor” head three horns, scaly skin, a tail, and one eye when he talked to me a long slimy tongue would flap about it wasn't just the doctor it was the nurses and other patients too, naturally I screamed and fought so they sedated me, this happened five times before I gave up fighting, they brought my family in too but they were monsters as well so I was very terrified, I know this must have hurt them... but what was I supposed to do. The doctors didn't know what was wrong with me I did have to have surgery on my head when I was in the coma but they scanned me again and couldn't find anything wrong, so they gave me some pills and sent me to a psychiatrist saying it was “all in your head” I can still remember his grotesque face talking down to me. When I left the hospital I realized it wasn't just them it was everyone, the entire world was a nightmare. I went to the psychiatrist, they gave me some more pills to help my anxiety and fear, I still go to a psychiatrist even to now. The pills they give me numb my senses, my emotions so I lack feelings, sure I can still get happy but not over joyous angry but not wrathful, sad but not depressed, but the one emotion I don't feel at all is fear, no matter what happens I wont be afraid so I don't freak out and attack someone. I stayed inside a lot reading, playing games, drawing, studying, but I decided to go back to school and here we are. So you could say I am insane, I do have to take pills to function in society and all, so yeah that's my life story.

“...I see”

“so any questions?”

“... so you currently still see people as monsters?”

“Yup even you.”

“But I thought you said I was beautiful” she felt a little embarrassed saying this.

“I did but,” he smirked at her again like he did before, “ I didn't say you were human.”

“What do you...” she changed her question halfway through, “What do I look like?”

“Do you really want to know?” he asked with one eyebrow raised.

“...Yes!” she exclaimed with a  nod because she felt like she wouldn't be disappointed by what he was going to say.

“OK”

He began to describe how he viewed her in his world of nightmares. You have pitch black hair and at the ends it turns ash white, on the left side of your forehead you have two small horns holding back your hair, your eyes are black with the iris and pupil being shades of red, your clothes are basically the same as they are, except they are black, and act as if you always have a gentle wind flowing through you, constantly swaying in the breeze, but at the ends of them they turn to embers and release ash into the air sort of like your hair, and from underneath your skirt is a steel tail, and it's point is heart shaped and sharp as if it can gouge out my heart, and... you wear combat boots.

“That is how I see you.”

“ Wow...” her mouth was slightly agape, “ I look badass!!!” She was all smiles and giggles

“You like it?”

“Yeah I think I look awesome!”

“It kind of clashes with your personality though.”

“Nah that stuff you see at school is just my public persona,” at this point she stopped being upright and let her shoulders droop, as if she became really relaxed, “ in reality I'm not into all those preppy stuff that most people think, for instance I like Rock like Seether and hate classic music but that's what people expect me to be into so I just go along with it, plus there is family situations.”

*tch* she clicked her tongue.

“ Why are you telling me this aren't you afraid of me spreading this.”

“What about you telling me this stuff, they would believe me but probably not you?”

“Well like I said I can't feel fear.”

“Ah sorry”

“Plus I cant imagine someone as beautiful as you betraying me.”

“you know that is usually how it is the pretty woman betraying the nice guy.”

“Well to me you are an  angel that looks like a demon in my world of nightmares.” he says this with that rare smile again.

*Blush* “How come he gets to me like this?” she thinks to herself as she looks away to hide her embarrassment.

“How come you believe me so easily?” he asks her.

“I just don't believe you would lie to me is all,” she hits his shoulder with her own, “plus this would be one elaborate lie, with tons of imagination.”

“Hmm... thank you.” this time he is slightly, hardly noticeable, blushing.

“Why?”

“No reason.” he shakes his head.

“This is one strange friendship we are forming here.” she says to him.

“ A insane guy.”

“And a two faced woman”

*Puhahaha* they both began to laugh out loud.

“Hey I don't mean to pry,” she scratches her head, “ but how many pills do you take?”

“ Oh uh... eight...I think.”

“You ever think of stopping?”

“Not really.”

“But don't they dull your senses?”

“Yeah but I've found other ways to feel.”

She tilts her head in confusion.

“Oh this looks like where we part.” they stopped at a intersection.

“Well I guess I'll see you at school tomorrow.”

“Indeed.” With that they go their separate ways.

“Hey!” until he calls out to her.

“Yeah?” she stops on the other side of the street and looks at him.

“You want to cut loose and be yourself don't you?” he asks

“Yeah I would like to anyway, why?”

“Let me take you somewhere tomorrow, at like eight.”

“As long as I'm back by ten.”

“Alright how about we meet up here tomorrow.”

“I can trust you can't I?” she asks him.

“Of course oh and wear comfortable loose clothing, that you like.”

“OK?”

And finally they parted. As they both walk away they have quite the smiles on their faces, she skips off with a hum and he puts his ear bud back into his ear, looking forward to tomorrow.